{"product_id":"even-if-im-not-0173","title":"Even if I'm Not","description":"\u003cdiv id=\"0\"\u003e\n\u003cb\u003eThe Greatest Loss. The Way Forward. A Mother's Story.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cdl\u003eMy first words as a mother were, \"Don't drop him.\" It was as if I knew, even before I held my first child, that I wouldn't be able to hold onto my children.\u003cdl\u003eWe were the family who lost half our children; over a ten- year period, four of our eight children died, as infants, from a rare mitochondrial disorder. After the babies died, I was sure that nothing terrible could happen to us ever again.\u003cdl\u003eNot to us.\u003cdl\u003eThen, Yossi, our oldest child and only son, drowned six weeks before his wedding day.\u003cdl\u003eAs a child, Yossi loved playing with words. Once, when he was getting ready for school, I said to him, \"There are bagels on the counter if you're hungry.\"\u003cdl\u003eHe said, \"Even if I'm not.\"\u003cdl\u003e\"What?\"\u003cdl\u003e\"The bagels are on the counter even if I'm not hungry.\"\u003cdl\u003eAfter Yossi died, I grappled with long-held beliefs: Hashem is close; everything that happens has a purpose; and our neshamos continue to exist after we leave This World. The comfort of these truths was there for me, if I was ready to accept it, but also-as I learned-\"even if I'm not\"...\u003cdl\u003eAt first, I couldn't find my way forward. I felt like Hashem was saying, I'm asking you to do something impossible. Do it anyway.\u003cdl\u003eEven If I'm Not is the story of doing the impossible.\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"12\" style=\"display:none\"\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\u003cdl dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\n\u003cstyle\u003etable{border-collapse:collapse}td{font-weight:bold;font-family:sans-serif;font-size:16px;border-style:solid;border-width:1px}th{font-family:sans-serif;font-size:16px;border-style:solid;border-width:1px}\u003c\/style\u003e\n\u003ctable\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003eCode:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"1\"\u003e9798886730173\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003eAuthor:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"2\"\u003eDevorie Kreiman\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003eISBN-10:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"6\"\u003e8886730179\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003eISBN-13:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"5\"\u003e9798886730173\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003eFormat:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"9\"\u003eHardcover\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003ePages:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"7\"\u003e248\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003eDimensions:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"8\"\u003e6.3\" x 9.3\"\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"11\"\u003eIsrael Bookshop Publications\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003ctr\u003e\n\u003ctd\u003eDate:\u003c\/td\u003e\n\u003cth style=\"font-weight:normal;text-align:left\"\u003e\u003cdiv id=\"10\"\u003e9\/16\/2022\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/th\u003e\n\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\u003c\/table\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e","brand":"Devorie Kreiman","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":51019796742312,"sku":"9798886730173","price":23.49,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0534\/9765\/9560\/files\/9798886730173.jpg?v=1736222416","url":"https:\/\/judaicasquare.com\/products\/even-if-im-not-0173","provider":"Judaica Square","version":"1.0","type":"link"}